Its The End???

Its difficult for the past few days, thinking of what you are doing to ur own precious life, thinking of how to go about settling things, doing things, and on top of that, its the exam week. Those thoughts were seriously annoying and distracting. Most of my careless mistakes, i realised, are due to the misread of the questions. Aw man! its sucks. However, it's all over. All Over!

Urge! If u still like another girl, why not tell me straight? i will be more than willing to let the both of you be tgt and make sure u dun treat her as how u treated me. Why do u have to do it behind my back? That's cheating. That's not the worst. The worst is when i had settled everything with u the night b4 saying things like ok, we will change and i will do it better this time round. I tot its a new beginning which will eventually lead to a happy ending. Wat a disappointment! The immediate day after the nice talk we had, i got bad news. But i am grateful that i am not kept in the dark. However, reality always hurts, i dun deny that. To think that u are actaully substitution for someone for 10 months, kept in the dark when there were serveral occassions when he wanted a patch with the ex without even feeling guilty about what he has done, msg you with the word "darling". So well, i was treated like a bloody fool all along? I admit i was stupid. I noe and its a fact. Now thinking bout all these, the feeling sucks big time.

All i wanted was a super duper simple explantion on why u wan go about doing things this way. U kept quiet. I can even accept if u say i want to go back to her cos i noe, ur heart was never for me. If the 2 of you patch, i wish both of u happiness. Maybe that would be a happier ending, maybe that's the perfect ending. I have no idea.

lastly, i am sorry in anyway i had offended u or hurt u or whatever i did which makes u uncomfortable or disturbed u, i sincerely apologise. really! i am sorry! Pls blame me no more.

Letting it go?

Been feeling rather down since the last post. Nothing change much though. Everything remain the same, exactly the same it was. I was expecting for a change somehow? Just didnt get the hint. Let go is easy to say but so dam difficult to complete. I wonder how long do i still need.
Who likes being treated as a backup? Who likes the feeling of being abandon? who likes?
suppose to concentrate on nothing else but my studies now. Its the MST week! But what am i doing everyday? Screwed up my itab paper today! SUCKS!
I usually have STM, but why is it now that i have LTM? This illness always come at the wrong time and for the wrong things. Haiz. Wats life man!
Been trying very very hard to forget. Somehow, its making improvment. However, they are some things that really cant be let go all of a sudden. But, everytime when i am making the slightest progress, i start thinking back again. Tats my setback.

Qoute of the day: If u are able to carry it in the first place, u will eventually be able to put it down.
Mood of the day: Sucks!