Confused!

aiyoyo. i am confused eh. haiz. school jus started and i should be focusing on my studies alr. but yet, i seems to be in no mood to study plus i still dunno wats all the module about. eg. its contents and how will they be related to my option, how will they be tested in exams. also, my mind is like wondering somewhere else la. grrr. i hate this feeling. it has come back again! ptffff. i am supposed to be doing research now but yet, i am wasting my time here. blogging. argh. hmm. its difficult to make a choice and i hate regrets. i dunno lahs. nowadays, friends around me seems to have meet the down part in their lives. i feel sad too. and also, i myself, am faced with a difficult choice. i am afraid of hurting anyone's feeling eh. kao. life is not easy. i am not happy at this point of time. sobs. but still, i must be positive! life still goes on.
alrights. so i went to ikea with mummy today thn to giant to buy groceries for the week. thn we went home to make our salad. had such a large portion lahs! i think i am getting fatter each day! HELP!

if only, there's nth on my mind now, it will feel much lighter. =(
going to do research SOON.
moodless.