Quoted;

Sometimes, u spoke so straight-forward, but still as sensitive,
sometimes, i wished i can tell you, how i felt,
sometimes, i wished i could say "hey, i don't like it",
sometimes, i hoped you know what you said was hurting, humiliating, insulting, and even, depressing
the times when u were so sensible, so sensitive, so caring, towards my feeling.
and tats the only times when i felt, u actually said the previous stuffs, for fun, for joy, peace, love, laughter, entertainment.
but still, who does not keep in the heart,
who does nothing to reflect on their shortcomings,
who actually ignores what others commented,
when there is kindness, there's cruelty,

this is the cruel reality.

oh gosh, help me live through it.
----> extract from JTSY.
hmm, it seems that only now did i really understood how u felt. i reckon that the "you" that u used was none other thn yours truly?
pardon me for being childish, behaving in that way i should not, blurting out all my thoughts w/o any hesitation. Though this entry was dated back 10 Aug '08, i ignored it till now. cos its till now tat i ever felt this way.
but through this 11 months or so, i've changed. to become more sensible (at least, when i am not fooling ard) i think. but still, sometimes, i cant control. guess perhaps its tat genes in me.
i am glad that it didnt ruined anything though. 5 years and counting.