Prons and Cons

firstly, i want to say sry to loewe, the person whom i had been showing my gloomy face to the whole day today. so sry. jus didnt felt like smiling. i can't bring myself to lift my mouth to smile. he's been trying so hard to make me smile but it didnt succeed though. am down with flu again. WTH! foc is jus next week. i cant afford to fall sick now. argh! thn after foc, is fop meeting and another greeny event, followed by fop. pack pack pack schedule.
wow! jus found out prada does shipping of goods from china. yay! now got anything can jus ask from him sia. even those limited edition stuffs. not cheap though cos adding in the shipping cost. actually now am thinking of whether to appear offline not. hmmm.
gonna be off a day to visit my auntie tmr. after tat going meet csk. can't believe it, csk going to bugis. maybe in formal wear oso? hahas! thn meet mr woh for a movie. and thn going to get my new... yay!
thinking back on wat happened this morning, i jus realised, my favourite auntie whom i called mother oso, is gone for a year plus alr. i said to visit her every month but did i? no. the last time since i visited her was even b4 christmas. she must be very disappointed in me. oh my. i can still vividly rmb that unfortunate day, when i wa having maths tutorial with mrs heng and the blurtoots on 25/10/06, mugging hard for the upcoming Os since my maths was the weakest, i recieved a phone call from my mother, over the phone, she sounded worried, restless and weary. i knew at that moment, something was wrong. rushed to the hospital jus to find my auntie lying on the bed with his oxygen mask, she was breathing so hard, so hard to catch her next breath. thn my another auntie asked me to follow her go smoke. 10 mins later. another phone call. "mummy" is gone. i rushed back to see her having jus a slight movement in the chest but they jus removed the oxygen mask. was told by someone to give her a last kiss, asking her not to worry about us anymore. i will never forget that day. even though she scolds and nags like every mother does, she is even more understanding and she noes watever every daughter will wish to have as compared to my own mother. haiz. now she is gone, i have to depend on myself most of the time cos i will always go to her whenever i needed any help or i had any problems.
life, isn't it fragile?
conclusion? i think its time to get over u and move on with my life. since life is so fragile, i am gonna live it to the fullest. live it the way i wan it. =)