Wats wrong with me?

aiyoyo. i dunno wats wrong with me. i think i put too high an expectation on myself. i am not sure why i will think this way. but i cant think of any other explanations why i actually teared when i told mummy on the phone i broke her cup. ya. i actually cried. the story starts when i went out to ta bao food and went back home thn i tot of the apples that i cut a few days ago, yellow alr so i decided to throw away and cut a pear so tmr can eat in the morning. so i got this very flexible and super thin cutting board for fruits so i used it but it somehow slide under the cup placed near the basin and i didnt noticed it until when i wanted to lift up the cutting board, the cup jus flew and landed on the floor. i panicked. i was like shocked. i dunno wat to do sia. cos i think its my mummy's fav cup. so i faster rush out to all the shops i can find selling cups to look for it. DUN HAVE! thn disappointed, i walked home thinking of how to tell my mum. so after i reached home, stressed alr. thn suddenly, the phone ring sia. its mummy calling. scared the shit out of me. so i jus ans and she asked if i ta bao alr not so i decided to tell her i broke the cup while cutting pear. halfway thru, i cant control thn suddenly burst out water sia. i was shocked. i was thinking OMG, why i will react like this. normally i jus dun care one lei. hmm. not actually dun care. at least i wun have such a feeling. so i've sort of come to a conclusion tat i stressed myself too much. so much that a mistake will make me feel so disappointed with myself, the feeling is like i cant even something properly and felt so lost after tat. scary sia. next time i will be more careful le.
ohh. and i realised dunno since when have i became a clean freak. i saw a few dirty stuffs on the floor thn i go sweep and mop the floor. lols. hmm. sort of proud of myself. haha.

look at the toot, bully/slap me. PIAK!! of course must punch back. PHOWW!!